What a wonderful day!!!!!
Oct 20, 2018
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this is my story and welcome to it good
morning welcome to Friday we were
actually on our way to go take my way to
go take Olli to the mosque Friday which
is called Juma day men and women can go
but I choose not to because first of all
my kids don't stop almost impossible to
go and enjoy yourselves
anyway so we are on our way to go and
take him there he's just printing
something off really quickly he needed
and then we were on our way to drop him
off I guess there was a really bad
accident going over the bridge this
morning so my friend told me that there
was it okay first of all we don't ask
like that that's the first point second
point you can Wayne Tom been talking
that is rude you need to wait there was
a bad accident and I guess there was a
semi that overturned that was at 8:30
this morning and I'm really hoping
because the whole bridge was closed off
that is the one honest-to-god one thing
I can say that really sucks about living
in West Salem is that there's really
only one way in and one way out unless
you want to take a scenic route that
takes triple the time and even then
you're gonna be flooded with traffic
because everybody will run to that side
which is going over the ferry then
there's another way but that one you
have to go through independence which is
about I'd say about 15 minutes from here
and then you got to drive it's it's
crazy it is crazy but
we will do guts to do to get him there
on time so that is the plan and normally
normally on Fridays I stay home with the
kids but I don't want to stay home today
so I opted to drive him and then I'm
gonna meet a lady that I'm selling a
ring on from Facebook so I'm gonna meet
her downtown so we have just a few
things that we're gonna be doing but
yeah so figure we'll just take you guys
alone I'm gonna definitely be making
more of those ring holders and I'm gonna
actually be selling them so that's gonna
be fun okay hold on Ezra because it was
in my purse from yesterday
that's all Mars Ezra's is on the floor
she dropped it but that one's s4 oh
sorry
all Mars has purple it's on the floor
she dropped it I tried
he just hold on to it I did look online
they didn't have any other colors
available in the size that I needed so
which is a bummer okay thought about
looking this actual brand up and seeing
if they have more or something somewhere
to them because these fit me perfect and
I can see that I will probably live in
these things but the hard thing about it
is they're pink and there's not I mean I
have a lot of stuff with pink in it
don't get me wrong but
- okay everybody I'm back I don't know
where this is gonna take me I don't know
where I'm at
actually I had to meet the lady for the
ring and my GPS had me all over the
place
it was clearly taking me on he says I've
never known but needless say I did find
it and she was a wonderful beautiful
lady she actually paid more which I'm so
you know I love that about people is the
generosity you know when somebody sees
that you know you've gone out of your
way oh my gosh I turned this way and I
can't even go but when you go out of
your way to do something for somebody
you know it just makes that nice when
they go out of when they go out of their
way and so the ring originally I sold it
because it's just a fashion jewelry ring
so I I sold it for five dollars and by
the end she gave me 15 you know that's
nice that is sweet of somebody that
clearly was only obligated to pay five
dollars cuz that's what I sold it for
so that was so sweet of her I honestly
was so excited because I was just an
extra you know two dollars it wasn't
expecting why Omar
what what's going on back there what
water honey
there was no water where did you see
water okay let me let's go we have to go
pick up daddy first okay and then we'll
see what we're gonna do okay can we can
we have patience okay anyways so it was
just you know it's nice it's a nice
gesture because it's an extra $10 that I
wasn't expecting so and as I'm selling
stuff all of that's going into Ward's my
cricket and all of my good stuff that
goes with it so how it's a I'm so
excited I can't wait to get this stuff
I've been watching so many tutorials on
it and like the fun things about it just
I'm really excited
what's wrong Ezra you want your window
down so anyways now we are on our way to
go pick up a leaf from Juma and then
I know we were gonna well he was gonna
get a drink I have a drink but you know
what I picked up some of those vitamins
okay honey um I picked up the vitamin
waters last night about four of them
because they've been really good they
quench my thirst there's zero calories
and I'm loving them while I got home
last night and I was drinking one I do
you know didn't you aren't just drink it
like I drank all the other ones and this
morning I went to go and make one and it
says that there are higher in 20
calories which is really confusing to me
because I know that the ones that I was
seen they were zero calories so I did
not realize that there are different
kinds of vitamin waters so I picked up
the ones that are there are 20 calories
which really kind of makes me mad
because I mean not the fact that it
makes me mad but it does because it like
it is not doing what I potentially
wanted to do which is you can drink as
much of these as you want there's zero
calories no that's not how it works
because these ones are 20 calories I'm
trying to avoid calories wherever I can
avoid them so wherever that may be them
that's just what I do so I am working on
you know doing the whole
you know cutting calories where I can
cut them and today I've done really good
I had for breakfast I had a quesadilla
because I needed something with a little
bit of heaviness to it and honestly to
be honest with you I am really burnt out
on open all right now so I went ahead
and I did a quesadilla with a little bit
of cheese and that was really good and
then I thought I was gonna do good with
my water but that's okay that's okay
what's going on
who is okay can we please be nice to one
another and let's be kind
Azra okay well then it's you two that
are gonna be paying the consequences
there was a cop next I mean he's like
looking at me like where's your photo
because I see you talking girlfriend
like it's plugged in in its up on my
windshield I don't touch it but anyways
so yeah I am doing good today I am
really doing good I walked a good amount
yesterday which made me feel really good
I don't know if I'm gonna have the
chance to go walking today I would like
to but there's no like guarantee about
it
so okay honey go see pee so I'm going to
during the window down a roll window up
because the guy had his music up
tomorrow anyways so
I am
not sure if I'm gonna get a walk-in
today but if I don't then I might just
try and do my light tonight so we'll see
what you wanted and I'll make sure to
let you guys know what I end up doing
and now we are shooting over to pick up
oli and then I gotta go drop off
Chris's get well card because well I was
gonna do it yesterday and I had it out
everything
so anyways I'm gonna flip you guys
around so you guys can see a little bit
more
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okay you guys I'm gonna try this one
hope that my phone doesn't go flying
because I cannot find my phone holder
but I mean the kids just got home from
well me the kids and elite just go home
from picking him up we wouldn't got him
a drink and then we stopped and got
subway for lunch for me and the two kids
the two babies they are eating their
sandwich and so on money but I thought I
would check in with you guys and see
what you guys are up to I need to I'm
not I'm not gonna use my cup right now
honey can you go see if your water
bottles over there go see if daddy
brought it in it's the same drink as
mama house please be careful now get
that blue cup and see if there's
something in it I'm using my cup for my
phone holder I don't wanna let ya know
get the drink off of the counter get
MoMA's other vitamin drink mm-hmm
anyways um okay Omar well I'm not gonna
get that right now there's no water in
it I have to change the thing so I said
get get the vitamin water mm-hmm yes
anyways I needed to go by wall marks I
did not get the table last night my back
was starting to really hurt yeah but
give me the full one honey
my back started or really hurt in
Walmart so I was just like oh I don't
really want to push you know push myself
there should be another one with a whole
one Omar open give me the one that's not
open hurry up it's by my purse anyway so
I didn't want to walk clear to the other
side of the store because I didn't
seriously think my back could handle it
so I went ahead and I bypassed doing
that so instead I wanted to go today and
go and get it but I don't know cuz he
needs to get some stuff done around here
and we have to get the Shelf taken out
my eye gets out of school and about an
hour so we might not make it over there
tonight I'm just fine I mean siddhart
going anywhere so we'll see but
he's going to take the stand out of the
garage and wash it down for me and dry
it really good and then we're going to
spray paint it white okay just eat the
rest your sandwich really quick so we
can be done
no a mom actually no anyways we are
going to wash it spray paint it and then
um I'm gonna bring it in and I'm gonna
decorate it really cute like DIY it not
sure exactly how I want to do that yet
but I'm gonna figure it out
and what else I think that's it um but I
need a shelf in there to start holding
myself because I'm I'm running out of
space although it is dawn on me today
actually that Olli has a whole dresser
he doesn't even use so I went ahead and
I'm thinking I'm gonna go ahead and put
some of like my like my paint stuff and
all that in one of his dressers and use
that instead of having that all piled up
in my room cuz either way I can go in
there and get it whenever I need it so
I think I'm gonna be doing that because
that will eliminate a lot I really don't
like when my husband gets mustard on my
sandwich
I'm grateful he gets up back rope you
people that make the sandwich like drain
it or like drowned it in mustard anyways
um so I can go and get that whenever I
need it so it doesn't make a difference
but anywho um I will check in with you a
little bit I'm gonna finish up my
sandwich and then um start getting stuff
prepped and ready to go so we can get
the shelf in
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so um well obviously we're on Friday I
told you welcome to Friday this morning
I just like to repeat myself a million
times I hope you guys had a wonderful
wonderful day though and weren't too
busy I had a fantastic day I got some
stuff done that needed to get done well
was it like it needed to get done but it
was definitely nice to get it done it
was a couple of house decorations that I
did so I will show those things to you
guys that was really fun that I was able
to sit in here and do that sometimes I
find just sitting and having that time
to just do a craft is so just grounding
for me like I just I get so much out of
it and so I worked hard on the projects
that I got done I did not do tutorials
on them I should have but I didn't I
said watched oh my knee is hurting so
bad though tonight um I said watch dr.
Phil while I did it I don't ever get a
chance to like just catch up on shows so
I was like you know why I'm gonna say
I'm gonna watch dr. Phil today and I'm
going to do a couple of decorations for
the house that I wanted to get done and
so there's my bed I got two shows down
Hey so the first thing that I made is
you see just over here I laid on the bed
excuse my towels I need to put him away
just a family sign and they had like I
can do like ones that say blessed and
faith family hello I think there was a
few other ones and those multiples that
I can do but that's just the side that I
made for my family and
again like I said excuse the pile of
towels I have to that's what I was
currently working on when I decided to
do my closing so me moving this stuff
around but I painted all of this and I'm
going to hang this in here because this
is technically s.res room but I can do
these to order so like if you have like
a certain name or whatever a letter that
you want I can do those but yes I did
this one for Ezra and then see that's
all I did for actual like crafts but I
did get hold on I'm just gonna keep that
there for a minute you guys are going to
see my messiness of this one this is
clearly a disaster right now here is my
jewelry about Joel my god my makeup
basket that I made the other day again
has to be made to order so this is
something else I just used this because
I like this color but they have multiple
other colors as well that you can choose
from but it carries like it holds my you
know my makeup brushes and all of my lip
glosses in there and I have more but
they're in my purse and then like all my
eyeshadows and stuff and this thing
ain't gonna go nowhere so it looks like
it's shaky shaky but it really is not
gonna blow more so anyway so I love that
though is so pretty I have this thing
right here because I normally before I
was into you tubing um I would sit and
watch my night shows like hour by day
shows but at night but now I'm so stuck
on YouTube videos that I find myself not
having time to watch my day shows
at all because I watch my youtube videos
not mine but the people I follow and
catch up on all of their stuff all their
vlogs and videos for the day and then
when Ollie comes out it's time to sit
and watch the evening shows that we
DVR'd which is usually like oh gosh we
watch together we watch 911
rookie Grey's Anatomy when they're
playing but we usually save that one for
enough for Netflix to catch it because
then we can binge watch it one time or
not at all at one time but you know um
the purge we're really watching the
purge right now American Horror Story we
do watch that one American housewife I'm
trying to think of the other ones I
think that's it right now I think that's
it but then I watch personally myself i
watch young and pregnant unexpected Teen
Mom Teen Mom og the little couple little
women of whatever one is on season so
little woman in LA none of them are on
right now I don't know what's going on
there then dr. Phil I think those are
all my shows that I watch but mine gets
neglected because I'm so involved with
my other you my other channels which is
the YouTube videos so I'm just like oh
my gosh we get so torn away so today I
was like okay I'm gonna sit I'm gonna
watch something well Oh 95 95 90 day
fiancé if I can say it right and 90 day
fiancé
before the 90
days I watched those religiously sister
wives I love that show I know
everybody's probably got their own
opinion I know but I like the show just
because I like the dynamics I think
Sister Wives is actually very cool in
their own personal ways I actually have
a few friends that are sister wives and
I think it's a beautiful thing for
people that can do it or people that
want to do it no judging or opinion
there for me I just that's just my
opinion so I love that show
and my five wives which they're not
playing anymore but that was another one
that I really really liked you was my
five wives uh
so anyways but I don't get to watch my
shows as often because I get watching my
YouTube stuff so today I was like okay
what can i watch so dr. Phil was the
first thing that popped up on my off of
my DVR on my phone cuz I get a xfinity
stream so I just stream it for my for my
DVR to my phone so I got two episodes of
dr. Phil down I've got 30 more episodes
to go woohoo and then I did my crafts
and just relax and just just enjoyed my
afternoon and then I made for dinner for
me tonight I made chicken wraps and then
the kids had pizza and chicken nuggets
because it's Friday night and that's
usually what we do is we let them kind
of choose what they wanted Omar was
begging for pizza and I was like we
ain't buying pizza no so I had pizzas
freezer because I buy the small to Tony
to Tony's or Tony's or whatever so I buy
the small one of those and my kids love
them so I went ahead and made that and
then chicken nuggets
I hopped some chicken strips and for me
for my chicken wraps and I made three
chicken strips thinking I would have
three little wraps but I couldn't eat
that much I only had two
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that's it that's that's the best of it I
had the subway for lunch and then for
breakfast I had the quesadilla so other
than that that's all I've had today I
I've really done really good with my
calories today and I will log it in my
Fitness Pal if anybody has Fitness Pal
if you look me up by I think it's my
name Amy Ramadan I'll look on my thing
and if I remember I'll put it on the
screen here but if you have Fitness Pal
follow me and I'll follow you I love
April cat cat lady me and her follow
each other and it's nice to have that
because then the more you have even
there it's more you know support but you
also are I guess you can say accountable
because people are gonna see what you're
eating and that's not the point of just
judging but you can almost set
yourselves you know like challenges like
okay this week you know let's make a
challenge I'm gonna lose five pounds
you're gonna lose what do you want to
try and lose and make that a challenge
or be like okay we're all gonna lose
five pounds this week so I did not do
the bike I did not do the bike my leg is
really really really hurting me I just
don't know what is going on with it I
hope when I go in on November 8th that
my doctor will get the notes by then
from the physical therapist and order it
because I seriously seriously seriously
I'm about ready to scream it hurts so
bad and I don't want to keep taking so
much pain medicine so I am really trying
my hardest to be like no Amy just relax
I keep putting my leg up it's not down I
mean there's nothing more I can do for
it right now and it just hurts so bad
and I say the knee yawn sorry I
but it's actually like the back of my
leg where that bulge thing is the I
guess it's a baker cyst or whatever
so anyways hi I don't know I'm just like
wanting to rip this thing off my legging
be back to normal because before this
before this bulge thing I never had any
problems never even with my weight it
never was a problem for me and then um
this is ridiculous you guys so but once
I started having this Bulge problem then
that's when my knees started hurting me
and then also right about that same time
is when my back started acting up really
bad and that's what the therapist was
saying is that when she was watching me
walk she literally could see me moving
my body to like make a difference for
that thing on my leg so she's like
you're totally walking crankin and she's
like you probably don't even notice it
because you're so used to it and I'm
like oh no I notice it and she's like
but that's probably why you've got the
lower back pain and you're gonna have
hip problems because of the way that
you're adjusting your body just to be
able to move that leg and I'm like yeah
but there's nothing I can do nobody is
listening to me nobody believes me
nobody is doing anything for me this has
been a thing that I have dealt with for
three years and it's not getting better
it's getting worse like even today I got
in the driver's seat because I was gonna
drive and what did we do we did
something for a reason that I had to
drive oh we took all eat ahjumma and so
when we came back he wanted to get a
drink so I was like oh okay so we went
to the gas station he got himself his
Red Bull and then we swapped seats
because that's when we were gonna go get
the subway and I thought we're gonna eat
in the car but then we end up coming
home but he went ahead and he was gonna
drive
and you guys when I got out of the car
to switch seats I literally wanted to
almost just collapse my lake my knee
hurt so bad like putting pressure on
that part of my leg hurts so bad and I'm
just like there you're gonna tell me
there's nothing wrong with my knee
nothing wrong with my leg it's just it's
just big and puffy for nothing
I mean clearly if one leg is showing up
55 inches my other leg is showing up 77
inches we have an issue and we need to
get it taken care of so I am just hoping
that with this appointment on the 8th
that we will get something clarified and
fixed and taken care of because I I
really don't know what else I'm gonna do
like I I guess I just live with it and
live in pain for the rest of my life
because there's nothing else I can do
which isn't fair because here I'm you
know I'm losing weight so I can get my
life back and I'm losing weight so that
I can start moving and be mobile which I
am but then it's like I'm mobile one day
and then the next day I am paying the
price for that so like yesterday I was
out you know we walked in Costco I
walked in Walmart you know I was really
proactive and I walked a lot but then
today boom I'm down how am I ever gonna
get enough exercise in when it's like
one day I'm doing really really good the
next day then I'm out of commission and
then the next day I'll be doing really
really good the next day I'm out of
commission because I have to make up for
the what I did to my lake while I was on
the go that the following day I pay the
price for it and I'm not able to do
anything because I'm in so much pain and
I refuse to constantly take pain meds
like I won't do it I can't and I mean
there's only so much tylenol night
program that you can take and but it's
just it is very aggravating it's really
aggravating especially when now tell me
why I have a knife next to my bed
I clearly don't know why even huh oh
because I know why I was chipping away
paint are not chipping my paint chipping
away a glue spot from something I had to
use the but anyways I just but I don't
know I'm just I'm so frustrated and you
know I I sit and it doesn't do anything
I take a hot shower and it doesn't do
anything like nothing is taking the pain
away nothing so clearly we have to come
up with a plan of some sort for pain
management because and physical therapy
ain't doin crap
because they can't and when she did do
it he wasn't that she hurt me but I have
bruises all over my leg from it so yeah
I'm just a ball of a mess
but anyways I'm gonna go ahead and I'm
going to close my vlog for the day
because I'm gonna go get my kids and
then pajamas and sit down and watch a
little bit of TV with them before it's
bedtime but anyways I hope you guys
enjoy today and I can't wait to check in
with you guys tomorrow bright and shiny
I don't know what the plan is for
tomorrow there is nothing on the
complete agenda other than ollie is
going to finish painting my stand
outside because I started and it was
just so strong that he was just like
mm-hmm nope you're not gonna do that
I'll do it so he is going to do that
tomorrow so that it can dry and be
brought in by Sunday night and then I
need to have fun decorating it but until
then sweet dreams you guys bye bye
